College Shenanigans and Short Vacations

I'm on my one week break and you have no idea how long it took me to actually write this down. I was so 'busy' on the other tabs.

Anyway, hello!! How are you?

I started college a month ago and I am staying in a dorm but I decided to come home every week. Thank goodness it's nearby and close to home or else I would be bawling my eyes out on my bed. I am just too homesick. The first week there was tough because it is all new and fresh to me since I came from a public everyday school. First day in class made me so intimidated as everyone sounded super smart and I felt so insecure. Everything around me was a problem at that point. You know, if a year ago, you told me that I can't adapt in this new environment, I would probably just slap your back and laugh as it was never the case. After entering college, I also got 1000 times more sensitive. Literally I can cry about anything. It can be the stupidest reason ever. I just don't know and I can't explain myself why.

After my first week there, during my first weekend home, my mother's school/workplace decided to go on a 'Family Day' trip. It was such a great way to end my first week of college. The moment I got in the car that Friday afternoon, I've never felt more relieved that I am going home. Anyway, we went to Gold Coast Morib International Resort which was pretty close to my college apparently but I am bad at geography so I really don't know if it really is. 

It had a beautiful beach and we all played games by the beach and hung out together like a big family. I loved it. The view took my breath away and I was just so amazed and in awe always. I don't think anyone was ever so excited as I was. The trip was really meaningful as I get to spend quality time with my parents, brother and close friends. It was always full of laughter and I couldn't remember any single bad thing that happened to me. The hotel had a water park. That was fun too but I don't think I'm going to go into detail with that.

Since the view was so gorgeous, I'm going to present to you some eye candy here.

But before that, I hope if you just started college or just started any new school, new project, new assignments or etc that everything will go well for you. I am still coping with my new environment and I only wish for the best for you. Life is gorgeous. There's no time to waste on worrying over everything. We can't please everyone and it is important that we please ourselves first. 

Enough being cheesy, here they are <3

See ya soon, loves.

3 months and a book

Hi. Let me just take a deep breath at the fact that i have been procrastinating from writing this for the last 2 days. I am not proud of myself but David Dobrik's videos are highly addictive and I truly blame myself for going back for more. I am ashamed but I can't promise you that I won't go back for more of his videos HAHA.

Anyway, in all seriousness, the past 3 months had been well, real crazy. I was really occupied with university applications, housework and really just taking time for myself to really relax after hustling through 13 years of school. I think the past 3 months are also the most stress and complicated I've felt in a while and I can't say I am enjoying it but what I can say is I have put on a lot more weight. So you can make your own conclusion on that.

Long story short, I will be enrolling in a professional accounting course at a local university on the 8th of July. I am glad to reach the point where I feel like I know what I am doing with my life and explaining it to people isn't the hardest task. I am also pretty excited and looking forward to where i am going to be at and what I am going to be doing for the next 4 years of my life. Hopefully, I do not forget to document it somewhere. Maybe here. Who knows?

In the midst of everything, in terms of my friends moving on and already starting university and getting new friends, my family's opinion on my choices, my preparation for uni, it's all just very chaotic. So i took some time to myself and decided to read a book. The book is called 'Fangirl' and was written by Rainbow Rowell. The book is themed around a first year student, Cath Avery, who enrolled at University of Nebraska-Lincoln. The thought of her and her descriptions reminded me of myself which is most probably why I love the book so much.

The story revolves around Cath who have way too much to worry about. Most importantly her single dad, Arthur Avery, who is basically crazy and needs attention or else and her twin sister, Wren Avery, who does not want to be around Cath anymore and is very much enjoying her life as a freshman by drinking and partying all the time. Her mother left her when she was 8 years old so she had to grow up faster than most kids her age. Cath just felt responsible for her family and think about them too often, hoping everything is okay. To fill up her time, Cath writes fan-fiction about her 2 favorite character from the Simon Snow series (which is almost similar to Harry Potter just with magicians and vampires), Baz and Simon. What's cool about the book is that at the end of every chapter, there would be short extracts from any 7 of the Simon Snow books or little extracts from some of Cath's infamous fan-fictions titled 'Carry On, Simon' and many more. 

Her roommate, Reagen thinks she's weird and different from any other freshmen students as Cath literally acts like she only goes to class and back to her room and that only. Levi, who she assumed was her roommate's boyfriend is always around as well hanging out in their room. To add on, classes haven't been easy and the 'friends' she made are not really the best of friends but are just friends with her because she got something they want. Her lecturer think fan-fiction is not a good write and is not original. This obviously crush hopes and dreams of Cath, who is famous in the fan-fiction community.

The story tells how Cath goes through all her insecurities which is very interesting for me because miracles doesn't necessarily happen. The story is so raw that I find it so interesting and relatable to my daily life. The way she confront her feelings, the way she solve her problems, really opens up my eyes on how to approach different situations and what to expect when I am in a similar situation.

I don't know if anything I've said is making you even a little bit more interested but please give it a chance. Give it a read. Maybe, just maybe, it could catch your heart too like it did with mine. I finished it within a week and I wish they had a sequel to the book. It's just unfortunate that such thing did not exist haha.

I should stop before I say too much and you don't want to get the book anymore. I hope to come back soon with more content but really, I have been staying home watching tv and youtube, listening to music and really nothing much. I finished How I Met Your Mother like a month back and I could never enough thank my friend, Joel who recommended it to me. I laughed, cried, felt so many emotions while I'm at it. You should give that a watch sometimes. I am trying to finish The Big Bang Theory now. No spoilers please.

Okay okay I'll leave now. Really hope and pray that I have more content to post.

My tightest of hugs goes to you..

T is For Tea and Tranquility

Hello! I am back so soon since my last post that I am so proud of myself haha.

Ever since I ended high school in 2018, I have the free-est time ever since I am not working and just staying home to keep everything well put together. So, I decided to take a day off from staying home (if that makes any sorts of sense) and go out with my two friends to visit a close friend of ours who is working in a cafe located in an ss15 housing area. She was the barista (i think that's what it is called when someone makes drinks haha) and invited us to see her there since we haven't seen each other in ages.

Long story short, I spent 3 hours there with my 3 friends reminiscing our high school life together and just had the best of time. I am the best (worst) at telling jokes and my extra self handwritten 10 jokes that i thought was punny and witty to tell it to them. Let me tell you, they aren't that amazed and I can bet that their laughter is out of pity. But, even the slightest smile on their face can make my day by a thousand times. Yes, even if they are pity smiles haha.

Despite the title, i didn't have tea while i was there. I had iced chocolate. It was good. Nothing else to say about it really. I also had a piece of carrot cake. Super good and the size is reasonable for the price. I even got to share it with my friend. No photographic evidence on that tho haha.

Anyway, let's talk about the cafe. The place is half cafe and half a wedding planning company. It's such a pretty place and I am absolutely in love with the aesthetic. It's bright and runs with natural sunlight mostly. Theres flowers and plants hung on the walls and placed on the side tables. It has such a simple, homelike vibe to it and the most important part is that THE COUCH THERE IS THE BEST. They had a setting with a couch and 2 arm chairs by the side, just like the in Friends and I was screaming 'Oh my God I can finally live my dream to somehow pretend I am in Friends!' I was just so in awe and was completely in love with it at the first sight.

The cafe also use metal straws in conjunction with the no straw policy in Malaysia. I completely forgot and almost broke my teeth for trying to bite into it. I could've lost my two front teeth! But I am not the only one as when I told my friend about it, he said he tried to straighten the metal straw without remembering it is made out of metal and that act is impossible. So really, I think that I am not that bad.

I had a fantastic time with my friends there. Maybe if you got the time, you should drop by and see what it got in store for you that day.

Till my next post!

Which I hope isn't so long after this one is posted haha <3

Once Upon a Home

Hi! These past few weeks I had been diving in to old pictures and old memories. Some are good of course, and some are bad. Those bad memories however are the ones that keep my feet on the ground, the one that made me who I am today. Surely, I am grateful.

Anyway, today's post isn't about any bad memories haha. I mean let's be real, if it were to be sad, I don't think it's much of a pleasure to read. Therefore, flashback to 3 years back when my mother graduated from university. As a celebration, we treated our close family members to a nice lunch at the Putrajaya Lakeside Club which had gorgeous views and just breathtaking. Unfortunately, I had no photographic evidence of that. After the lunch, we visited my cousin's new home with her husband and this is what the whole post is about.

It's a lovely studio apartment with a loft for a bedroom. They also got a ceiling to floor windows. The place is called 'The Square' and it literally have a square as a home. I was surprised and amazed at the super creative idea of the place. Anyway, enough about the home since I don't think we are going to have any pictures on that. We visited the rooftop which had an infinity pool, gym and a beautiful garden. The whole building is glass inspired and the reflections of light all around the place especially during the sunset, is absolutely beautiful.

My cousin recently moved to a new home and this is just a tribute to a beautiful place they got to call home, that I was definitely jealous about at one point haha (shh don't tell them)

These are a few snaps from the day. If it doesn't look impressive, it was probably just my photography skills HAHA

See you soon, Sya.

Lrt and Fishes

Hi everyone! Wow 2019 really is here and your baby girl (me) is already having the most nicest time of her life. 2019 so far had been very relaxing and pretty much lovely in general. I stay at home most times and its been nice to appreciate the serene environment. I've been cleaning the house a little bit, settle down and watch a lot of tv (and harry styles)

Okay skip everything lets talk about my first trip with my 3 friends. We made a trip with the lrt to the city of Kuala Lumpur to visit Aquaria. I get to see a lot fishes and I honestly have no complaints. The plan was originally to go to Petrosains but at the last minute we decided to go to Aquaria instead and no regrets it was a great decision. Maybe next time Petrosains.

It was my first time on the lrt and I was pretty nervous but the time went on pretty fast even though we had to stop at about 10+ stops. Its true when they say that time passes by fast when you are having fun. My 2 friends that were on the lrt with me really did help me pass the time and were the best company on that day. It was pretty early in the morning when we went and we had to cramp in the lrt with people going to work. No joke I tried so hard to stay balanced and restrict my movements so I do not hit anyone around me.

I do talk a lot of crap so here are a few snaps

haha the black lump is my friend's head. I don't know how to tell her to move so there it is

I hope your 2019 is going on well so far. I couldn't have asked for a better start. I hope everything will go on smooth and all our dreams will come true in the year 2019. To good vibes only.

All the love, S.

Malacca

Hi, I am back! I am also back from my holiday and it was the magical 3 days of my life because I got to spend a lot of time with my family. We played card games such as monopoly deal and hi jack. There were a lot of laughter going around and we constantly sleep late just to play more rounds.

On the second day, we woke up early to breakfast and during lunch, we went out to eat some fish asam pedas that was really delicious. We then went to explore a little bit more of Malacca by climbing up the st Paul's hill (i hope that is what it's called) to visit the st Paul church that was built centuries ago. It is so beautiful and there was carvings on rocks and all. Yeah I was starstruck haha. We also went to the A'Famosa to see the part of the wall that was left from the Portuguese times. It was built in 1511 and yet still standing tall. At night, we went to see some 4d shows and a red indian show and a parade at a carnival in celebration of Christmas.

Okay let's be real on how terrible I am talking about this whole history thing. So as promised from the last post, here is a thread of photos that I had taken through the trip.

God bless my history. I should never talk about history and only talk about things that I know or I'd 100% looks stupid.

haha there were a lot of pigeons on our apartment balcony so here is one

Eternally grateful

Hey! I finished my big exam that i talked about before. Finished it just earlier today at 3.30 pm. I feel a hugeee relieve in my heart and I am just chilling and relaxing and just want to take 2 weeks off just for myself. Right now, i could only hope for the best in my results that is coming out in about 3 more months. Please pray for my success and God shall bless you in every way  <3

I am off on a holiday with my family in 2 days and I am just looking forward to this getaway. I think I have mentioned it way too much to my peers. It shows just how much I need this break haha. I have not seen the place but I trust my parents and my uncle to make the best decision for me.

What have I been up to for the last 6 months? I graduated. That is one. It was a pleasure to be able to walk on stage and have everyone that I adore around me. I could never ask for better classmates because they have accepted me in all my bossy ways and all my imperfections. I am just glad that if I laugh hysterically, instead of making fun of my laugh, they join in. They really are the place to release my tensions. The ones I scream at but never scream back. Its crazy! Who can stand me like that?! I am eternally grateful for them.

Teachers have given me every last bit of their hope to me in the last few days before I go for my big exam and I again, am eternally grateful. Sometimes those little bits of hope is the one that keep us going whether we realize it or not. Therefore, we must always look on the bright side of things. Some people, they say things to make us feel better but they phrase their words wrongly. They mean well. Every time just right before the exam, teachers would stand in a line and just wishing us luck and I felt the love and feel more comfortable in the exam hall.

Lets talk about friends in general. I am an ultimately annoying and most would say, clingy. I have no idea how they could stand me hahahaha. I am that person that asks a billion questions until I truly understand something. But i am grateful on how at any time of the day, if I text any of my friends, they would reply. Rather it be 2am or 4pm, they would be there and I am extremely lucky since not everyone have the same privilege as i did with all of them. Some of my friendships were mend in this course of 6 months and it hasn't and probably isn't going to be the worst decision I would have ever made.

The past 5 weeks have been intense. It is the total time I had to spend in the examination hall. It is of course very stressful and brings about a bunch of emotions that just come together and sometimes just get the best of me. Books been thrown and doors been slammed. How do I release the tension within me, you ask? I scream to one direction songs. Every day I come home and I just put on their live shows (cause live ones are always better than the recorded ones) and sing my heart out in front of the television with them. It feels good. Better than stress eating at least haha. Perhaps, just maybe, I've been the cause of the thunderstorms. Whoops!

Of course I am grateful for my parents that had been patient with my attitude and tantrums at home. I am so grateful because they had only been extra supportive and helps me ease my stress. They bring miracles and their non-stop prayers for me will always be something i am forever grateful for. I definitely do not deserve this love of a man and a woman that is just too strong to be true.

I think I am done making my thankful speech haha. Today marks my last day as a secondary school student and throughout this 13 schooling years ever since I am 4 and barely 5, I am thankful for everyone that is a part and had been a part of my life. Without these people, I surely would not grow into who I am today :)

I hope I could put up some photos of my holiday that I mentioned earlier in the following post. Not a promise though cause I am really not good at posting regularly as you could tell haha. See you! Here are some photos I took from a long time ago.

Mid year, big year

It's JUNE oh my god the time have flew by so quickly. I have a countdown for my spm trials exam and its so weird to see that the countdown is due in 30 days. I swear it was 200+ days before. Yikes I am so done for haha.

As I am writing this, I have just finished my mid year examinations yesterday. It was full of roller coasters, tears and panda eyes and cramming a year and a half worth of syllabus into a day or two or for selected subjects, a night. My system is now totally immune to the 3 am sleep schedule and I kind of have trouble sleeping now which is really bad. It's not insomnia or anything. It's just my brain is already immune to the 3 am study time.

The first week of my exam went on pretty well. It was actually quite relaxing and I finished whatever I am supposed to read for the exam just in time for the papers. It was all fun and games until week 2 decides to give everyone a headache. I have totally given up on history and physics which they think was a great idea to put it together on the same day and am totally ready for all my bad grades rolling into my report card. You know the worst part.. we had to come on Saturday for our add maths and physics paper. 

A SATURDAY oh god that totally did haunt me.

I took a nap on Friday and woke up twice to a still bright day and I panicked for a moment cause I thought it was already Saturday. My blood pressure totally didn't appreciate the rush I was going through on Friday evening that i thought was Saturday morning. God bless my soul.

The third week is pretty fine. Despite having to know that my stream is the last stream to finish the exam is pretty heartbreaking. I mean its unfair that I have an important paper and all the other classes just chill and no exams on that day. I don't even understand why they show up in school. They only had civic on that day. But i mean I don't blame them either. All exams are important.

Let's not even start on my mood swings. I was in a bad mood all 3 weeks long. Full of stress and yes crying and all is included in the package. What keeps me going is only a bracelet that I wear all the time that says 'NEVER GIVE UP'. If not, I bet, just like how I plan to, I would've given up so fast HAHAHA. I got this bracelet in late 2016 and honestly it had been keeping me going ever since then. I think everyone should have something like this just to boost that tiny ray of hope and determination in them.

Anyway, I have been working on improving myself in certain subjects. I hope things goes on well for me. People are laughing cause I am actually studying a day after I finish a 3 weeks worth of exams but hey when else are you going to push yourself right? Its something you just have to do constantly. 

This is all from me now I guess. Here's a photo of the bracelet I had been wearing and I'll just leave a link just in case anyone is interested in it. Tata for now :)

Never Give Up Cuff - Rose Gold

All The Stress in The World

It must have been so bad that the S word is in my title...

Honestly I understand how crucial this year is for my future. I want to get that 9 straight A+ regardless of what I go through. I've been trying my best in everything. Join extra curricular activities and participating in a lot of competitions with my friends and just had been trying to be that best student in everything.

The SPM results came out this week. Yesterday to be exact (by the time this is published) and I am just so proud to see all these great achievers. They truly are the inspiration and I aspire to be like them. I am sure all those hard work throughout 2017 had paid well for them. SPM is like the last thing we have to go through before we could officially say "Phew, that was high school" and in all pain and happiness, I want to end it right with a straight A+ certificate.

I've been trying so hard. But I think the pressure around me had decided my own stress isn't enough and had to add in with a lot of other little mishaps like those time teachers made fun of me, the times i couldn't understand a thing written on the board, the times i managed to get myself into doing extra paperwork that had nothing to do with my SPM. I am deeply tired at this state I am writing right now. In fact, I just woke up  from a 4 hour nap. If you think 4 hours is bad, just saying but I have slept around 12 hours, 2 days ago and I still feel tired. They say its the stress and I am in no place to say they're wrong.

Just today, I've realized how i've somehow developed the extreme tiredness syndrome and had gotten myself annoyed with pretty much everyone and of course this perfect wannabe was throwing her bad mood and her rudeness to people around. I literally snapped at my choir coach today because I felt attacked when she wanted to correct me when I am not in the mood. I called her a bully because every week I am there, she somehow someway managed to find a way to find my mistakes. Not her fault though. I wasn't that good either haha but I was too stressed out and that happened which is horrible in a lot of ways.

MAJOR ALERT : NEVER SNAP BACK AT YOUR TEACHERS

For all the nice things in life, the school gave us a one week break which by the way isn't a break at all. I literally have all these days occupied oh my god I want to cry. I thought I would be more chilled out and this is the point where I get to destress for a few days but no I don't think so. I am starting early with my homeworks. I literally want to try and finish everything by today so that I barely have anything piled up by the end of the week.

I have also developed a crying problem. I cry at almost everything and I truly am overly sensitive. I think THE STRESS IS GETTING THE BEST OF ME. I keep on crying when people starts to talk about SPM and about my commitment in achieving my goal and just anything similar. A little joke could also harm this sensitive soul and I truly feel unstable with my emotions which I will gradually work on as I go through (hopefully).

It is tiring living up to my own and others' expectations but if I don't push myself now, when again right? I have a long way to go and I know that but at this rate I think all I need is an actual break where I don't have to think about anything else including studies besides my own emotions and my own mental stability. These 3 months had truly be an eye opener on how horrible stress can make you and lets not start on how horrible it had made me as a person. 

I probably just need a break and I am going to get that now. Hopefully whenever you're reading this, you're doing well. Trust me, never give up on your dreams. In the end, all of these are for your own good. 

Bubbyeee

p.s. Stephen Hawking passed away two days ago so here is a picture with my favorite words from him

2 weeks in

We're two weeks into 2018 and I feel like there are so many changes that had come. All the stress of school and paperwork and homework and etc seems to come back to haunt me. Believe it or not, the first week of school was such a busy period for me and I continuously slept at 12 am onwards which I strongly not recommend to everyone. But also at the same time I feel like comparing to other friends of mine, 12 am is pretty early as they would sleep at 4 am and trust me it doesn't do them any good either.

I was appointed class monitor and I feel like a mother to 30 children with different attitudes and behaviors. I had to collect their information and the wait for it would take a few days and i'd have to remind them over and over like an old lady. Of course by the end of time I got what i need but at the same time I feel like they only did it so I would shut up. It's a win-win situation anyways haha. I'm deeply sorry to them for having to hear me talk about the same thing over and over again yikes!

Moving on, I was also appointed the head of the class monitors. So basically I am the leader of the class monitors and that too is a whole new story. The teacher that gave me work didn't give me specific instructions on how to actually do the paperwork. I did it with my own understanding and I would send in my work early but of course it got rejected. So I had to redo everything and trust me my mood wasn't all that well either for this whole thing. But eventually with enough support and self motivation (cause no one actually give a damn), I finished it and hand it in the same week as well. Yay for me boo for the teacher.

I took up physics tuition this year as last year wasn't a great year for physics so I thought this would help me improve. The first tuition was on the first day of school (2nd January) and I was so blur. But i finished the homework and managed to get all correct and the following lesson wasn't all that bad. For my other tuitions, chemistry and additional mathematics, I still enjoy them as much as I do last year. I really hope 2018 would be the year of improvement for my studies because seriously with a maintained grade of C for biology, it's really stressful.

What else happened in these 2 weeks? Ummm lets see nothing much besides school stress really. Oh and I made a crazy new year's resolution to stop shopping so let's hope that one resolution won't fail eeeekkk. So far so good so I don't wanna jinx anything bad that would make me wanna go shopping to release stress HAHA

Here's my first ever flat lay that includes most of what i'm going to fill my 2018 with. Its such a busy year already and we are just 2 weeks in sigh. (Excuse it looking horrible please. Like REALLY)

Toodlepip!!

P.s. I have no idea what to put in the flat lay okay it is just my first attempt I WILL IMPROVE (hopefully)