It's JUNE oh my god the time have flew by so quickly. I have a countdown for my spm trials exam and its so weird to see that the countdown is due in 30 days. I swear it was 200+ days before. Yikes I am so done for haha.
As I am writing this, I have just finished my mid year examinations yesterday. It was full of roller coasters, tears and panda eyes and cramming a year and a half worth of syllabus into a day or two or for selected subjects, a night. My system is now totally immune to the 3 am sleep schedule and I kind of have trouble sleeping now which is really bad. It's not insomnia or anything. It's just my brain is already immune to the 3 am study time.
The first week of my exam went on pretty well. It was actually quite relaxing and I finished whatever I am supposed to read for the exam just in time for the papers. It was all fun and games until week 2 decides to give everyone a headache. I have totally given up on history and physics which they think was a great idea to put it together on the same day and am totally ready for all my bad grades rolling into my report card. You know the worst part.. we had to come on Saturday for our add maths and physics paper.
A SATURDAY oh god that totally did haunt me.
I took a nap on Friday and woke up twice to a still bright day and I panicked for a moment cause I thought it was already Saturday. My blood pressure totally didn't appreciate the rush I was going through on Friday evening that i thought was Saturday morning. God bless my soul.
The third week is pretty fine. Despite having to know that my stream is the last stream to finish the exam is pretty heartbreaking. I mean its unfair that I have an important paper and all the other classes just chill and no exams on that day. I don't even understand why they show up in school. They only had civic on that day. But i mean I don't blame them either. All exams are important.
Let's not even start on my mood swings. I was in a bad mood all 3 weeks long. Full of stress and yes crying and all is included in the package. What keeps me going is only a bracelet that I wear all the time that says 'NEVER GIVE UP'. If not, I bet, just like how I plan to, I would've given up so fast HAHAHA. I got this bracelet in late 2016 and honestly it had been keeping me going ever since then. I think everyone should have something like this just to boost that tiny ray of hope and determination in them.
Anyway, I have been working on improving myself in certain subjects. I hope things goes on well for me. People are laughing cause I am actually studying a day after I finish a 3 weeks worth of exams but hey when else are you going to push yourself right? Its something you just have to do constantly.
This is all from me now I guess. Here's a photo of the bracelet I had been wearing and I'll just leave a link just in case anyone is interested in it. Tata for now :)
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